I can't seem to do anything right. I've always had trusting issues and it just makes everything worse. Krystal...you know I love you with all my heart, right? I've told you millions of times. I'm sorry. Long distance relationships are hard, we both know that because we are experiencing it now. But do you know how hard it is to wake up every morning with out your other half laying next to you? Or how it is that I can never see your beautiful face, touch your luscious lips, hold your perfectly chiseled face in between my hands and tell you how much you mean to me? It's just hard to believe you when I don't hear you speak those three words for weeks at a time. I can't live on just promises alone. Promises on how we'll be together. Every time we aren't exchanging words I can't help but think you're with somebody else. Somebody loads better than I could every be. Somebody that you deserve to be with. Somebody who can fulfill all your needs that I, hundreds of miles away, cannot. I don't like assuming. I try so hard not to assume that there is another person that you are keeping secret from me. But sometimes I can't help it. I know you love me, that much is for sure babe. I love you....I'm sorry I have been wasting your time these past eight lovely months.

I love you...